Day 648: The Desteni of Living – Declaration of Principles (12)

In this Series, I will be having a looking at the Desteni of Living Declaration of Principles, at how I was as a person in relation to them, what do they mean to me, how I see them now, any corrections needed and how I will implement them into my life and live them to the best of my ability and beyond, that would assist me into changing my Human Nature, from being Self-Centered to becoming Equal to and one with who Self is, showing and doing, walking and living these Principles into doing that which is best for all Life, in all ways, always.

• My physical body is my temple – I honour and support my physical body as an expression of me. I nurture it and care for it in order to ensure my best possible expression in this life. I take into consideration the impact of thoughts and emotions on the physical body and within this I commit myself to practice self-awareness and self-care through not only diet and physical wellness but also internal stability and clarity.

We’ve defined and treated it as a vessel, as if it’s something you can just get in and drive, that’s only here to carry our lazy asses around, and when we’re finished with it, it’s disposable, as we move on to somewhere out there, then fine ourselves right back Here, because T-Here is, Time-Here, going Nowhere really fast in our minds while standing still right Here, which makes us always Now-Here, so what better to do than to guard as the regard to your human physical body in everything you do, because there’s no getting away from yourself that easy, we will/have to face ourselves for what we’ve done to, and haven’t do for ourselves, to all that is this Human Physical body, in reference to the Disregard/Lack of Consideration thereof and/or the Expulsion of Care away from it.

My physical Body is my Temple, without spiritualizing it or despising the way I look, being that it’s life and life remains forever, have we ever questioned the labels we place upon ourselves, in relations to the well-being/presumed care of our Physical Bodies, I mean I went from eating any and everything growing up, and when I got up, through gathered knowledge and information felt that it was bad to eat pork, and so became a non-pork eater and thought that this was the way to being healthy, then into being selective and only eating chicken and fish, calling myself a non-meat eater, to experiencing no change what so ever within me, but only got hungrier. I’ve been a Vegetarian, but for only two weeks, and I’ve fasted and felt as if I would starve to death lol, so that didn’t work either, but not once throughout these time did I simply ask my body, what it need, outside of my mental craving, meaning there was no connection, as I believed myself to be the “head honcho” in charge, in fact in my head, but charging my Mind Consciousness System that was controlling me, prompting me to change beliefs, at the change of the wind, to being full of ‘good grief’ every time my stomach would hurt.

The shock treatment going from one extreme to the next, one food group to the next, from one form of Di-et to the next, all the while really Dying to Eat, thinking Diets was good for me, but was the wrong diet. My honour was based on being honorable, which I showed as an expression the presentation of me, how I carried myself, which was a façade and only view on the outside.

My nurturing was making sure I took my vitamins, having a full belly and working out every now and then, with no insurance of how I would feel at any given moment, being that I was always in my mind, had no consideration nor realization that even if I felt a moment of healthiness, would soon be interrupted by the next thought and/or emotion that would come up within and as me, that effected my physical body negatively.

Therefore, my self-awareness and self-care was null in void, nowhere to be found, because I was missing the main point, that of internal stability to be able to see with clarity, so;

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have defined and treated my body as if it was a vessel that’s here for me to use (drive around) and discard, in the attainment of something greater after this life, without realizing that life resides in my Human Physical Body in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself disregard my Human Physical Body, in feeding my Mind the substance that is me, instead of my Physical, nurturing substance for it to be able to support me to reach my fullest potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have given my directive principle of control to my mind, that dictated me into shocking my Human Physical Body, every time I would go from one food group to the next, one diet to the next, from one extreme to the next, thinking that the external presentation of me, (my body) was enough, but was in the service of other and not myself, my physical.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to give my physical body the absolute chance to reach its fullest potential as the ultimate expression that I can be, but have only done this in spurt in bits and pieces, therefore;

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to in totality, honour and support my physical body as an expression of me, where I nurture it and care for it in order to ensure my best possible expression in this life, within that, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to take into consideration the impact of thoughts and emotions on my physical body, but instead let myself literally be eaten alive, therefore, I commit myself to practice self-awareness and self-care through not only my diet and physical wellness, but also internal stability and clarity.

I realize that My Physical body is my Temple and from hence forth, I will do my best, within practice, while walking my process to treat it as such, until I am able to amalgamate into it, as it, as one, as all, doing that which is best for all, all life on this planet and in existence. And that conclude my take on The Desteni of Living – Declaration of Principles.

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Day 647: The Desteni of Living – Declaration of Principles (11)

In this Series, I will be having a looking at the Desteni of Living Declaration of Principles, at how I was as a person in relation to them, what do they mean to me, how I see them now, any corrections needed and how I will implement them into my life and live them to the best of my ability and beyond, that would assist me into changing my Human Nature, from being Self-Centered to becoming Equal to and one with who Self is, showing and doing, walking and living these Principles into doing that which is best for all Life, in all ways, always.

• The Principle of Visibly Living the Principles – Actively living the proof of what can be accomplished when individuals live their potential by ensuring that these principles come through in all that I do, in all areas of my life, so that the example I set for others always stands for What is Best for All.

From taking responsibility to trusting in myself, to correcting my relationships and giving as I would like to receive, without being self-aware that I am Here and I am me, and I created this me to be who I have become as the irresponsible one, dictating while being controlled by my overly possessiveness, due to the extreme fear of loss that I existed as, was not possible, simply because, I believed what was going on inside of me was real, and this that I see Here that’s solidified in front of me was the illusion, which was actually the delusion I lived within and still now, most in humanity, when all one have to do is to investigate more into the first profound realization that one has on any level, that would make way for one’s awareness to come through even more, to start seeing oneself within everything around you, that is you, into embracing oneself for what one has accepted and allowed in one’s world, then realizing that one is responsible for everything that exist, which may seem as a lot, but isn’t when the correction is done within oneself, as we were placed Here to maintain this Earth/Planet and existence as a whole, but have slowly fallen to the waste side of things, wasting life after life, after life, in chase after an energetic experiences, which in fact is made up of constructs of the Mind, that was designed to keep us busy with bullshit while our physical was being Mined for the energy we so chased after, but now we in this day and age are actually blessed in a way to have the opportunity to come across Principles that can be lived by each one of us, presented by Desteni, that I’ve been writing about in the short Blog Series, that has assisted me to live the change visibly that I want to see in this world, and not just spew lip service and/or waiting to die for someone to come and save me, (because it’ll NEVER happen) the only never that is forever. Encompassed within all of this, when lived and taken responsibility for, is the Act of doing “What is Best for All”, with include You, Me and All Life, so I am/have been and still is in the process of enacting these Principles in my Life in the becoming of living proof of what can be accomplished when living my potential, by ensuring that these principles (that I have been writing about, and now living) come through in all that I do, in all areas of my life, so that the example I set for others always stands for what is best for all, so why not You.

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Day 646: The Desteni of Living – Declaration of Principles (10)

In this Series, I will be having a looking at the Desteni of Living Declaration of Principles, at how I was as a person in relation to them, what do they mean to me, how I see them now, any corrections needed and how I will implement them into my life and live them to the best of my ability and beyond, that would assist me into changing my Human Nature, from being Self-Centered to becoming Equal to and one with who Self is, showing and doing, walking and living these Principles into doing that which is best for all Life, in all ways, always.

• The Principle of Relationships as Agreements – Individuals coming together to support the manifestation of the best possible versions of ourselves and each other. Nurturing each other’s potential and supporting one another to transform weaknesses into strengths. Creating a safe space for the healthy expression of intimacy and sexuality.

It’s fairly easy to relate to someone when relations is all that you have on you mind as a starting point, then from there, because of the relations, we believe we found our soul mate/better half and/or significant other, without getting to know who this relations partner really is, therefore, we become attached to a watered down version of the person in question, held together by a string of feelings, chasing after that first energetic experience we’ve had with them, and would say anything to one another in order re-live it again, to keep hope alive, (per se) walking around on eggshell, secretly despising the point of believing that I have to feel this way, when walking this way literally hurts the sole of my foot, which is why Agreements are warranted/Needed to really enjoy a life worth living with someone, that with you together can come together to support the manifestation of the best possible version of ourselves individually and then each other.

How many times have you pointed out your own weakness to yourself, let alone, became stuck within the Idea of pointing others out to them, unless it was in spite of, I mean who wants to fuck their own shit up, “IF” it’s going so well with her/him, and am I weak for thinking this way, the same goes for asking a lady what’s her age and watch a senti-mentality come to life, meaning I sent you a sign and you got all emotional on me, so No I like them just the way they are, with no realization or consideration of the other and how greater the compatibility would be, when sharing/showing and realizing things about one another with each other, but we’re too superficial to officiate in equality, that in which Agreements bring.

When mentioning the word Agreement to anyone, the first thing for most that comes up is not a togetherness, but the separation of what I can do for you and you for me at a cost, and if all else fails, we take them to court, if the Agreement was written and/or say; “But you promised”, if sealed with a handshake or a mild understanding, I’ll Agree with you if it suits my self-interest or the interest of the company, other than that, we’re at odds and enjoy sitting back at odds with ourselves, I mean the comfortability within spite is extensive and accepted as a normal, thus relationship are formed open ended, stating I/we have an open relationship with each other, meaning you can go have relations with anyone, but so can I, without question, that being the extent of Agreement within relationships.

But rest assured a healthy expression of intimacy and sexuality is never reached, because things soon become monotonous, in the midst of, where a connection is never reached, because at the forefront of our mind is the fling we just had, and this that we’re doing, is just to satisfy the other momentarily, so we can continue having flings, in this Agreement of an Open relationship, which is actually opening the door to calling it quits more sooner than later, where within that a safe space is never created, because both have put themselves in a compromising position.

This in which I speak about is the realizations in hindsight of the literal hell I put myself through within, just about all my past relationship, in which we ended up never Agreeing on anything substantial, where support was only in the sense of not pissing the other off, and seconding the idealistic way we both thought, until our ideas collided and didn’t want to deal with each other anymore, claiming that the thrill is gone’, the thrill is gone away.

But it wasn’t until I took the Agreement Course that Desteni offers Online, within the DIP Pro courses, did I gain an understanding of what Relationships as Agreements really are, and so committed myself to when and as I am in the midst of creating a relationship with someone, to walk an Agreement with them with a starting point of coming together to support the manifestation of the best possible version of ourselves and each other. Nurturing each other’s potential and supporting one another to transform weaknesses into strengths, which has stopped me from going into frivolous relationship (for most part), as a waste of my time and the other involve, and so now I am walking the Principle of Relationships as Agreement, that takes a massive amount of correction, starting with;

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to within past relationships and as a starting point, Individually come together with the other to support the manifestation of the best possible version of ourselves and each other, but instead, only saw how this relationship would support my Ego in self-interest as a few momentary feel good energy experiences and went for it, which compromised who I am as a person, in to becoming subservient to the other when things didn’t go as planned and I created a fear of loss within and as me about it.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize that this would have opened the door for Nurturing each other’s potential and supporting one another to transform weaknesses into strengths, but instead, chased after an open relationship with whomever I was with at the time, allowing them, as well as myself to fed our Ego with the perpetuation of our weaknesses/addictions, not realizing how this would estrange our togetherness, into hanging on to each other by a sting of feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I was safe within the relationships I’ve had, believing that my relations with the person was enough to keep us together and called that intimacy, instead of seeing/realizing/understanding how I was only into me and not them as a person, as who they really are, and thus dislocated my awareness of them being there as equal to me, as me, which always ended up in worst case scenarios, as the consequential outflow of just being in a relationship.

And so on and so forth, as we move one step closer into correcting the relationships we’re in, by transforming them in to Agreements.

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Day 645: Then Desteni of Living – Declaration of Principles (9)

In this Series, I will be having a looking at the Desteni of Living Declaration of Principles, at how I was as a person in relation to them, what do they mean to me, how I see them now, any corrections needed and how I will implement them into my life and live them to the best of my ability and beyond, that would assist me into changing my Human Nature, from being Self-Centered to becoming Equal to and one with who Self is, showing and doing, walking and living these Principles into doing that which is best for all Life, in all ways, always.

• The Principle of Making Love Real – Nurturing and honouring the utmost potential in every individual (including myself) wherein love is not a feeling or emotions, but an action that is lived by doing whatever is necessary to support without compromising myself or the other – without fear of “losing” the relationship or the feelings associated to love, and without accepting or allowing less than my own or my partner’s utmost potential.

As if it makes things all the better for it when stating, “But I love you” as a statement that supposed to be the end all to be all of coming back together, when a mishap happens within a relationship, which is really a last beg and plea to keep the comfortability of what you had going in place, as the fear of loss comes into play, which creates the beginning of the end of any relationship, that perpetuates servitude from hence forward from one or the other, until the other becomes fed up and can’t take it any longer and abruptly calls it quits, but if love was real, then the mishaps would have been seen, used as a point of correction into connection, connecting with the one you really love, being that we wouldn’t have accept from the other anything less than who they are, but by accepting it, we’ve fallen victim to being less than who we are, but who are we in the midst of loving the feeling that we have defined as Love?

They say love will make you do crazy thing, but is it crazy to point out to another as yourself, how lazy I’m being, I mean are we really seeing this love thing the right way, the real way if love loves and hate at the same time? How is it possible to claim that you’re mine and I love you, when we don’t have the spine to stand up straight for what we see that’s compromising our relationships, with our partners/friends and the world as a hold, but would rather hold onto the meaningless interaction we’re having with that someone, stating; ”I don’t want to piss them off” (Out of self-interest), because who will I then turn to, too validate my way of being, in which case thinking that we’re compatible and that’s what love is all about.

I think not when thinking too much about how I make others feel and how they view/look at me, which is far from Nurturing and Honoring the Utmost potential in every individual, because I have failed to do that with myself, work on myself, in fact love myself outside of becoming emotional when consoling myself during a Pity Party I once gave me, claiming Nobody Loves me and believing it to be true, but when those that really love me point out how what I’m doing compromises who I really am, we ask them why are they always so negative, then disassociate ourselves from the real love in fact given from the one that we now question the motives of, instead of questioning our actions in the moments of being corrected.

Then you have; “I’ll do anything to prove my Love to you, which most likely ends up being compromising/degrading to oneself, that gives the power to the other person, and I don’t care who you are, the first thing that comes up in your mind, when saying such a statement, is the hope for them to ask you to do and perform some erotic sexual act, which 9 times out of 10 is nowhere on their mind (With You) in anyway what so ever, I mean let’s be honest here, when you fear losing something/someone, the idea of doing just about anything to keep what ‘Was’ in place, back there, is on the forefront of one’s mind, but again if real love was in play, we wouldn’t find ourselves in such precarious positions.

I have positioned myself too many times in a place of compromise within relationships throughout my life, thinking that love made me do it, that is until I realized that the love that I perpetuated (per my definition) was the sabotaging point within it, and so started to shy away from it, but it wasn’t until I found Desteni, did I learn what real love really is, and so now walking the point of Making Love Real for myself first and then that of others within my world and reality, and I must say that this is a process worth walking and would suggest for you to walk it for your self, by investigating Desteni and/or starting with the Free Online course they have Here, The DIP Lite course (Desteni I Process Lite).

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Day 644: The Desteni of Living – Declaration of Principles (8)

In this Series, I will be having a looking at the Desteni of Living Declaration of Principles, at how I was as a person in relation to them, what do they mean to me, how I see them now, any corrections needed and how I will implement them into my life and live them to the best of my ability and beyond, that would assist me into changing my Human Nature, from being Self-Centered to becoming Equal to and one with who Self is, showing and doing, walking and living these Principles into doing that which is best for all Life, in all ways, always.

• The Principle Self-Trust – No matter what hardships, failures, and mistakes I may face, I always come back to myself and the principles that I stand as. I will not give up or allow myself to blame others for the circumstances of my life or how I choose to live it. I take absolute self-responsibility.

It’s interesting how we say trust and believe that Ima do this, that and the other, if and/or about a pending situation, to someone, then build up in our minds that we are really going to do the damn thing, but when the moment presents itself, we get cold feet (per se) and as the fear of actuality sets in, we become silent and/or embarrassed-aggressive, depending on the response we get from another person, throwing back in our face; “But I thought you said”, with a smirk on their face and that’s when all the excuses in the world comes out from within us, because we we’re simply too scared to trust in our Self.

The point of remaining grounded, no matter what hardships, failures and mistakes I may make is timely, as I am currently walking this point in my life, facing a few hardships because of a few mistakes I’ve made, and even if directed by someone else, my positioning placement, is but merely my fault as well, in all self-honesty, thus I must take responsibility for it, being that I know better and have the Tools of correction needed to correct myself, giving up, nor giving in, nor blaming another for the trust I put in them is not an option.

Which brings up my next point of; the trust we put in others, without first trusting ourselves, I mean come and save me, help me through this hardship, and when the other is not in a position to, we compromise the relationship we have with them, by saying fuck you then, all the while, knowing that the solution is within us, but chose to remain blinded by the Idea of the easy way out, sort of like forgoing the Starbucks coffee line and placing a mobile order.

If you were to tell someone to trust yourself/trust in yourself the first thing that would come up is a feeling and then they would say, I am/do trust myself that I’m going to do what I want/going to do, which is but a mind excerpt, and far from what Self-Trust really is, as I have experienced myself being this way, believing that my Self-Trust was defined by a first notion, then move into motion towards enacting/playing out what was presented by my mind, and interestingly enough, once hardships fell upon me, I would cower away and give up, until the next spurt of energy would come within and as me, as something else to do and chase after later.

Blindly following a preprogrammed design, that defined my usage of the word trust, has always been directed, in a direction away from myself and not towards/to/as my-Self, Me, really trusting in myself that I would get through whatever it was that I was facing, while standing firm as who I am in between time, which is the most important part, because we quickly Apt to say; “Everything is going to be alright” to one another, and or “You’ll get through it”, but in the midst of, stressing the fuck out, which is without a doubt not Self-Trust, but Self-Stress/Anguish then Pain, and all that remain is a head ache for thinking too much and an extended period of hardship. Therefore;

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have experienced anguish, a head ache and pain in the midst of a hardship, where I then became hard on myself through judgement and frustration, instead of seeing, my self-positioning/placement in the matter with clarity to be able to stand through it all, trusting my self-resolve in and of the matter, as I in more ways than one did this to myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to, live the principle of Self-Trust unequivocally as, no matter what hardship, failures and mistakes I may make, to always come back to myself and the principles that I stand as – that I will not give up or allow myself to blame others for the circumstances of my life or how I choose to live it, and to take absolute self-responsibility, but instead, have melted in a way giving way to my mind, that would disperse pieces of myself all over the place so to speak, during any emotional breakdowns I would have, when all I had to do was Trust my-Self…

And so on and so forth to move forward into correcting oneself for our lack of Self-Trust, so in essence we have to stop placing our trust in others, because of how easy it is to blame them when things go wrong with us, in our lives, and live Self-Trust as the Assuredness that I see my own fault in the matter, understand how I’ve placed myself in the position I’m in, and to remain stable while walking through and into the point of correct, to find that connect with and as my Human Physical Body and so is how I am, and will continue to Live Self-Trust.

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Day 643: The Desteni of Living – Declaration of Principles (7)

In this Series, I will be having a looking at the Desteni of Living Declaration of Principles, at how I was as a person in relation to them, what do they mean to me, how I see them now, any corrections needed and how I will implement them into my life and live them to the best of my ability and beyond, that would assist me into changing my Human Nature, from being Self-Centered to becoming Equal to and one with who Self is, showing and doing, walking and living these Principles into doing that which is best for all Life, in all ways, always.

• The Principle of Give as You Would Like to Recieve – Considering the context and the lives of each individual being. Considering, regarding, and supporting them in the way that I would have liked to be considered, regarded, and supported had I been in their place and lived their life, where the support that I give does not compromise myself or cause harm to anyone.

Whenever I’ve had anything perishable throughout my life, that someone would ask for, maybe need, I wouldn’t have any quorums giving it to them, for most part, I believed if someone needed something they should have it (support as well), especially in relations to a person’s well-being, survival, food, shelter, etc. but even more so, the advice I would give when asked, wouldn’t always be to appease there self-interest, I always for most part had an neutral point of view, where if it was a relationship problem per se, I wouldn’t tell them to just leave their partner and/or, agree with whatever they said, I’ve always kept a “it takes two to tango” stand point of view, simply because I would want the same done for me, just the same as, withholding information from someone, I’ve come to dislike this, throughout my life, since I was young and was told in many ways, that the protection of a child is to withhold information from them, which can be/Is in most cases, that much further away from the truth, being that in the end, once the child or person in general learns that you withheld vital information from them, that could have been used to possibly change their point of view on things and so their Life in a few instances, if told or show what they were so-called protected from, they might not take it too well. And in some cases, it may be the other way around.

I mean in this case are we really take into regard/consideration, what may be best for an individual, or for our own self-interested assumptions, thinking to ourselves, that they don’t want to hear or know this, because if it was me, I wouldn’t want to hear or know what I’m not telling them, but who are we to tell, meaning we say that when the information is about someone else, but when the information is about us, that no one is telling us, we scream blood murder.

Interesting how I’ve experienced this on a major scale throughout my adult life, now knowing that not every person you know will do what you would do without question, give as you would to them, (in regards to vital information) but all else said and because they don’t share this information about you to you, do we react to this and stop sharing with them as well, I mean it’s a hard but fine line, between staying who you are as giver and/or becoming spitefully assumptive as they are, some might say ‘Well it’s within my Nature’ which is the case, but we as a collective don’t have to accept this as who we are.

Give as you would like to receive, there is no one that’s exempt from going to someone for something, but selective as you will, and would perpetuate as if you don’t need anything, in front of those you’re not willing to give freely to as you would like to receive, makes life a thing of cost, not a demand to be lived, and would on the other hand demand respect without first giving it.

It’s fairly rather easy to give, but rarely done, because we tell ourselves that we don’t want to be left holding the bag per se, thinking and sometime knowing that it may not come back – that we won’t receive in some form or another what we gave, which puts our giving in vain. Thing is giving should be done unconditional, with no expectations and by all mean, if you really don’t have it to give, don’t compromise yourself by giving what you don’t have, as I still have this point coming up within and as me at times, but immediately correct it, as this aspect of myself is a work in progress, but I do give as I would like to receive, so;

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Day 642: The Desteni of Living – Declaration of Principles (6)

In this Series, I will be having a looking at the Desteni of Living Declaration of Principles, at how I was as a person in relation to them, what do they mean to me, how I see them now, any corrections needed and how I will implement them into my life and live them to the best of my ability and beyond, that would assist me into changing my Human Nature, from being Self-Centered to becoming Equal to and one with who Self is, showing and doing, walking and living these Principles into doing that which is best for all Life, in all ways, always.

• The Principle of Self-Awareness – An active reflection and seeing of what is happening inside myself – my thoughts, emotions, feelings, reactions, and understanding that I am at all times responsible for what I accept and allow and what I participate in and thus give my power and attention to. To realize that my words become deeds and thus the words I allow within become the actions and consequences I create without.

I am aware that I am Here physically (as most are), but haven’t been present most of my life, stored away in my mind, trying to steal away back to myself, which is home, connect to a heart that pump blood that powers the system that is now me, automated to believe the sideshow is what’s real and that the wheels of time is on my side, unaware that I’m siding with a Mind that controls me, as I think this is who I am, accepting with limitations my ability to only see in 3d and not what’s inside me, around me and in front of me as me, which resides within another frequency, but I am aware, somewhere in the Here that is me.

My active reflection consist of looking at myself in the mirror, or might I say, looking for myself in the mirror, pointing out what my mind sees as flaws, fat jaws and a pimple on my cheek, which is life in fact, but seen as a shell of me, because the me is not present, but dangling as a puppet on these string that I’m connected to, chasing the ‘merry go round’ of thoughts going through my head, connected to emotions and feeling, but instead of realizing what’s happening, I react to them, then claim, I’m not responsible for the way you made me feel, although I accepted and allowed it, something amiss, but I am aware of this.

What I participate in and thus give my power and attention to, is not Me, Myself and I, but You, Them and They, ‘How do You feel about me’, ‘I want to be just like Them over there’, and ‘They did this to me, I had nothing to do with it’, but was aware of what they were doing, meaning I am aware, knowing what I participate in, my participation within it, and the consequential outflow to come, but in the midst of, give way to the demands of my mind that I let Hijack my Awareness, replacing it with being confined to Space and Time, but I’m aware of this, or am I.

I am aware of the pain inside me, but can’t explain it. I am aware that I have a brain but don’t know how to use it to its fullest potential. I am aware that I am strictly mental, but is this really wo I am, is my mind that compromises my relationships really that instrumental, I mean there has to be a simpler way of looking at things. I am aware that my dreams are not real, but they sure do feel like it, then wake up attempting to recreate them in reality, but it doesn’t work that way, and instead of learning something from them, I chose to stay within them, until I’m finish and my days are done, as a collective, believing that I’m having fun and aware of it, but where is the Self in this equation, and introspection, inspecting my mood swing and how I look at things, thing is if we were really that Self-Aware, we wouldn’t have to write down how we feel, therefore;

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to actively reflect and see what is happening inside myself – my thoughts, emotions, feelings, reactions, and understand that I am at all times responsible for what I accept and allow and what I participate in and thus give my power and attention away to. Within that I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that my words become deeds and thus the words I allow within become the actions and consequences I create without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create consequences within my life, because, I wasn’t Self-Aware of myself, within myself, as to how I would experience me and the things I participated in accept and allowed myself to give my power and attention away to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have thought that Self-Awareness was being aware of the things I liked and didn’t like, that I would either gravitate towards and/or shied away from, instead of seeing that I needed to investigate how I felt and would react towards these things.

And so, looking at how I was aware of only certain things in my external environment, that I let shield me from looking internally at myself, I see how my life have been a complete abdication away from taking responsibility for myself, through being Self-Aware of myself, that I now live by and follow at all times actively reflecting and seeing inside me what come up, why, and then go immediately into the correction phase, meaning I am now becoming more Self-Aware of me.

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