Day 2: Resistance

I have always been one to resist almost anything that has to do with having to work on myself because I believed that I was fine and there was nothing I needed to change about who I have become. Before Desteni if someone told me I didn’t know myself and I am resisting take responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed. I would have first looked at them as if they were crazy then entered into a debate with them about how greater I am then them. Resistance.

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of everything else that I could do, instead of writing my journey to life blog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience resistance to writing my journey to life blog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist anything that has to do with me taking responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist facing myself and walking through the consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to; within resistance, yawn and fall asleep thinking that I am tired, not seeing realizing and understanding that yawning is my systems wanting to shut down as resisting my taking responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed, standing up, facing myself and walking through each point breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that throughout my life, what I called being tired is me resisting taking responsibility, standing up and facing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and see that I could have supported myself to take responsibility, stand up and face myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry when I am “tired” and sleeping, when someone wakes me up, not seeing realizing and understanding that in fact I am not tired, but resisting facing myself.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself thinking of everything else that I could do instead of writing my journey to life blog, I stop and breathe.

I realize that my thinking of everything else to do is me experiencing resistance to my taking responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed.

I commit myself to taking responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed.

I commit myself to when and as I start yawning and falling asleep knowing that it is resistance I take a breath to bring myself back here to physical reality and stand up and tell myself that I am not tired before continuing on with what I am doing.

I commit myself to no longer accept and allow myself to become angry when someone wakes me up, but instead realize that it is resistance and to assist and support myself to pull through the tiredness.

I commit myself to through writing, self-forgiveness with corrective application assist and support myself to pull through the tiredness realizing that it is resistance, stand up and face myself, take responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed by investigating and finding the cause to how I have created and followed this pattern my entire life .Background2-wordpress

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