Day 802: The Web of Responsibility

Reciprocated chaos only reciprocates chaos, but when reciprocating chaos is misconstrued as something else, sticks oneself into one’s own sticky situation, as a free-spirited communicator, communicating nonsense and Selfless Sense with no Sense of Self, if Self’s starting point is not common sense and continue perpetuating self-dominance, with no Promise to ever stand one and equal with all.

It’s all good to paraphrase the things that we learn, but what’s the use when not living the things that we learned, as if I earned the right to turn a back on a friend, and let them continue to sink deeper than they have, when knowing, upon a time, I’ve been there before, and couldn’t ignore the pulsating pain I was feeling, with everything stripped away and laying on the floor, how soon we forget ‘that doesn’t validate a thing’, because things that’s unseen is missed in between a contorted message and a message that mean something, like taking Responsibility Really means something, where Nothing in the world will ever change until we do, and live the change we advance upon ourselves, to never take advantage of the message that we’ve learned, and the principles that we walk, to live the principles that we walk and talk about without living the principles that we know, and so stand as an example to all we come in contact with and connect with the best parts of our own Self.

An entanglement of problems is a web of responsibility and obviously the push back is the things we suppress, then judge the very suppressed we’ve pushed inside ourselves, and hold our tongue to not say a damn thing about it, but jump to the chance to get our damned point across and call this infraction assisting another person, when it’s all my fault for not assisting myself and letting go things of the past before they get out of hand, to being the bearer of bad news that things got out of hand, and now stuck within the moment of decisions that we’ve made, vs taking responsibility for the decisions that was made.

“Web of Responsibility” – It’s never my way or the highway because my way never drove, but took a back seat and watched the mind drive me crazy, directed into a possession of thinking ‘they’re crazy’, instead of correcting the possession I found myself within, creating a web of lies and laying it in disguise, that I would eventually step into the trap I set for myself, but a minor set back when EVERYTHING can be forgiven, just as long as Self-Forgiveness is in everything I do, and the words that I speak is the response to my ability to consider others as I would like them to consider me. Therefore;

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize the words I speak has an effect on others, even when in the context of assistance, to not considering they’re starting point of acceptance, which makes the web of responsibility my own as well and so take responsibility for the words I speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place words in formulative conjectures without fine tuning the simplicity within them, simply put, to state the realizations I’ve had in the presentation of them for context.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reciprocate chaos, unknowing to me, that’s veiled by good intention, then wanting to wipe my hand clean from a conflictual situation as if the situation just magically appeared out of Nowhere, that’s Now here, for all to take responsibility for, no matter how sore I may feel without the stench of pain, but the sorry that I didn’t say anything that’s often missed, and won’t miss the chance to take responsibility now.

And that’s it right there, where if one fall’s we all fall, but if one stands up, it’s not enough to just look at the stand, but also be the standing with, and relative introspection I’ve learned from it and keep it pushing, because no one is exempt from being a work in progress. So;

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand the possibilities when standing as the point of responsibility taken, that awakens the utmost potential I’m walking towards reaching, and so I commit myself to when and as I am walking my process to keep a keen eye out for and refraction I may cause in others lives, in anyway what so ever, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem, it all matters to me, as I see/realize/understand, every Little thing within me needs to be corrected as well, so I can live within the well-being of my life.

Thanks for reading.

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