Day 793: Anger (The Good/Bad/Ugly) Pt.3

The angry man stare can only lead to a headache, that awakes you from this energetic mind possession, with no energy left and get mad at that, then pray to God I won’t do that again, that’s a lie and turn right back around and do the same thing again, uncontrollably like why am I always so angry, that shows how we really don’t want to be this way, and stay far away from conflict as we possibly can, until the next person decides to get on your nerves, and deserve the rage we hold inside, thinking this rage is the learning curve for teaching them a lesson and so despise the point of correction that’s a blessing in disguise, just to hide behind the faces we make.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think “For fucks Sake” in a moment of experiencing anger, when a stranger to me just don’t get it, instead of realizing and considering, this other person really don’t know me, and so my trigger points, that was ever so greatly pointed out by them, ever so gracefully, that placed me in a moment of anger, showing that I still have work to do in releasing myself from such points, being that I still harbor a reaction toward the slightest action of another, when doing/saying certain things around and towards me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have put on an angry face when someone has looked at me, and so became uncomfortable, in security of protecting my insecurities, that has secured a position in my expression, of self-judgement, thinking I’m not up to par with how I look, that we let society dictate in many aspects of our dress/body structure/skin tone and clothes, and so hide behind this wrinkly face, that says’, ‘WTF’ are you looking at, you wanna fight’, in spiting the point of correction, that lessens our opportunity for change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize, how I ‘as a collective’ become a bedding for cancer to reside, when suppressing anger and holding it inside with no release point, and so lived my life in disgust, that may or have caused such dis-ease to formulate within my physical body, to clean up what I fail to take responsibility for, that is ultimately a detriment to my physical well-being if not careful, and so choose to blame this condition of things like cigarettes, although some have never partaken in such things in their life, which begs to question where do cancer really come from, then become angry at such anomalies occurring, instead of investigating the true meaning/nature behind it all, which you can find, HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to simply became angry at things that are beyond my control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have expressed anger when I lose control of things, superficial, instead of being the expression of anger, when realizing, I have given up my control of self to my mind, in this lifetime and those of my past, and doing something about it, that’s a way to express anger in a ‘good’ way, without it being based in emotion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/perceive/believe, this, that I am feeling within me, the constriction of chest, the tight lips, the aggressive demeanor, with butterflies in the stomach feeling, is me and normal, instead of realizing how this behavior is the encapsulation of fear in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to express anger for being in fear of thing, without looking at what and why I fear certain things/people in my world, that cause me to be/become angry.

And so, the specificity for what we experience individually, is our points of correction, to be looked at investigated and corrected, that we can only do for ourselves, to stop these unwanted occurrences from happening within and as us, and affecting our way of living and that of others in our lives, that in some cases could be detrimental to our well-being, so the point of correction to anger is the perpetuator there of, being you and me. I a work in progress.

Thanks for reading.

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