Day 747: Communication, Under Pressure

They say a closed mouth don’t get fed, meaning if you keep things to yourself, you’ll stay within that in which you old dear to you, the problem, under the guise of judgement, believing others will judge you for what you’re going through, and where some may others won’t, in fact the ‘some’ in the matter may not judge you either, but only disassociate themselves from you, until you find your way out of what it is you’re facing, being that they may be facing things to, but on the other hand, those who’ve been through such points may assist you to see what you’re missing, in which case communication is a healthy thing to do, but it’s up to us to pick and choose who we divulge certain information to, because as it stands, no one wants to hear about a problem, (or may not can take it) if one hasn’t attempted to climb oneself back out of the hole one has put oneself into, first and foremost, no matter who it is, or what it is that you’re facing.

Most of the time, it’s an outsider’s perspective that’s needed as a motivating factor to keep moving forward and/or to clear up the accumulation of things (ideas) we have coming up in our minds, all at once and the indecisiveness that comes with it, that can be a bit overwhelming to see when placed under pressure, and the only thing we choose to see is the falling apart part, that’s temporary, but don’t seem as such in the midst thereof.

We don’t say things to others in our world, because we fear losing them when we need them the most, but most of the time this fear is do to not having been there for others in our worlds, when they needed us the most, and so would rather say nothing at all, now that the tables have turned, and learnt to deal with it by staying stuck within it, instead of a lesson well learned to be communicated about.

Where the communication comes in, is after one has realize the pattern being played out, that initially pads the impact when falling into a reoccurring circumstance one has been in before, that each time becomes worse than the previous, and so on and so forth, where the communication must chance from the McDonalds idea of a quick fix, to inquiring about a layout that sticks = ways in which we can stop this from ever happening again.

When under pressure, and communicating, instead of being excuse driven, just sneeze and get it over with/get it all out in the open, (so to speak) mean I see it, I accept it, now how do I move past it, being that this is only one moment in time and don’t have time to waste, I mean we’re not getting any younger and time waits for no one, therefore the correction continues;

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place pressure onto myself by not communicating about what it is that I’m experiencing in moments of being overwhelmed with accumulated circumstances occurring in my world, to those who can assist me to see what it is I’m missing on the road of correction, that could be a simple as getting an outsider perspective/point of view.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to throughout my life not communicate with others to seek this outsider’s perspective, thinking that no one will understand me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow a pattern of keeping things to myself, which at times is cool, but when looking for an absolute way of correcting myself, assistance may be warranted by those who have walked through the same and/or similar point that I now face, but still don’t reach out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to possess myself with thinking/perceiving/believing, at times that reaching out is useless, but only look at it from the viewpoint of being stuck within the problem and not from a solution orientated point of view.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear a lash back will opening up with certain people in my world about things going on with me, and so choose to not say anything at all, as if all is fine, instead of finding those in my world I can really talk to and discuss certain matter with, about me, that I know gives good and solid sound advice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have communicated good and solid sound advice to others in my world, but not live the advice I was giving, that would have saved me the headache to what I’m facing, and so in turn became a man of my word.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize how communicating under pressure only leads to the invalidation of occurring facts, that’s veil by the added-on victimization I’ve done unto me, like get to the point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to most importantly, not communicate with myself in self-trust that I’m looking at/introspecting and investigating the root cause of any problem I face, but instead would tell myself; “This can’t be”, and so look to communicate with someone who would validate my self-interested findings.

And so, I commit myself to perfecting my self-communication in self-trust of me, when introspecting and investigating my finding, accepting my faults and mistakes and correct them, to take with me into the next moments from now as a lesson well learned, to not repeat these same mistakes again and live the change as the experience of me, when and as I see myself falling into a mind energetic template tempting me to follow it.

Thanks for reading.

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