Day 40: Finding Me

day-40--finding-meFinding me is like looking for and needle in a hay stack per se; Were as I’m pulling off layers it seems as if the pile stay the same size. Meaning; I didn’t realize as I was pulling off a layer, that I was adding another layer in its place which made it harder for me to see progress. Let’s say I reacted to a situation that came up and applied self-forgiveness and self-corrective application for it. Then, become proud of myself. Right there, I have reacted energetically with a positive feeling. So at times it seemed impossible to ever find myself. It’s easy to overlook a hidden point within a point. I overlooked the point of reacting in any way towards a point that I have corrected. In this; I have realized that it’s not impossible to find myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the analogy; finding me is like looking for and needle in a haystack per se; Were as I’m pulling off layers it seems as if the pile stay the same size.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in using the analogy; finding me is like looking for and needle in a haystack, not realize as I was pulling off a layer, that I was adding another layer in its place which made it harder for me to see progress.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to a situation that came up and apply self-forgiveness and self-corrective application for it. Then, become proud of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become proud of myself when I have corrected myself for reacting to a situation that came up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react energetically with a positive feeling.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that by reacting energetically with a positive feeling of being proud of myself when I have corrected myself for reacting to a situation that came up, I am replacing the layer that I have just pulled off of the “haystack” in which I am looking to find myself in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to at times think that it seemed impossible to ever find myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that it’s not impossible to find myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overlook a hidden point within a point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overlook the point of reacting in any way towards a point that I have corrected.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself reacting energetically with a positive feeling of being proud of myself when I have corrected myself for reacting to a situation that came up, I stop and breathe. I realized that by reacting energetically with a positive feeling of being proud of myself when I have corrected myself for reacting to a situation that came up, I am replacing the layer that I have just pulled off of the “haystack” in which I am looking to find myself in.

I commit myself to no longer reacting with a positive feeling of being proud of myself when I have corrected myself for reacting to a situation that came up, but instead I will continue to remove layers with the understanding that it is a process and there is nothing to celebrate about.

I commit myself to no longer think that it seemed impossible to ever find myself, but instead I will continue on with my process and find myself.

I commit myself to when and as I find a hidden point within a point, I correct that point and continue investigating more thoroughly each point that comes up, so to not leave any points hidden.

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