Day 17: Switching from One Personality to the Next

It’s interesting how I switch from one personality to the next in the presents of different people. I have observed myself throughout the day. What I find is, say for instance a girl is walking by, I correct my posture and or my facial expression and if I have my headphones on I would make a few subtle dance moves to try and catch her eye. On the other hand, let say a guy or group of guys walks by, I would switch to being self-righteous. Another one is when a family or single parent with a young child or a baby in stroller walks by, I put on a smile and show the utmost care and respect to the parent.

I see/realize/understand by switching back and forth from one personality to the next, I am keeping myself trapped within my own little bubble of separation. Separating myself from who I am as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to switch from one personality to the next in the presence of different people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to correct my posture, facial expression and if I have headphones on, make a few subtle dance moves when a girl walks by to try and catch her eye.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to switch to being self-righteous when a guy or group of guys walks by.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when a family or single parent with young children or a baby in a stroller walks by; I put on a smile and show the utmost care and respect to the parent.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand by switching back and forth from one personality to the next; I am keeping myself trapped within my own little bubble of separation. Separating myself from who I am as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from who I am as life, because I have created different personalities.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself switching from one personality to the next in the presence of different people, I stop and breathe. I realize that my constant switching back and forth from one personality to the next inhibits me from being here as who I am as life and thus, hinders me from being as effective as I am able to be.

I commit myself to no longer switch personalities in the presence of different people, but instead I will remain here as who I am as life.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself correcting my posture and or facial expressions and if I have on my headphones on make a few subtle dance moves to try and catch the eye of a girl walks by, I stop and breathe. I realize that I am compromising myself by switching personalities and I am not here.

I commit myself to no longer compromise myself when a girl walks by, but instead remain here as; who I am as life.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself switch to being self-righteous when a guy or group of guys walks by, I stop and breathe. I realize that by being self-righteous I am placing myself on a platform above others and being judgmental.

I commit myself to no longer separate myself from other guys when they walks by, but instead I will remain here as; who I am as life.

I commit myself to stopping the separation of myself from myself and to no longer keep myself trapped within my own little bubble of separation, but instead I will continue investigating through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application the extent in which I have trapped myself.

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