Day 13: Third Party

When receiving information from someone about a Third party that pertains to me and how the Third party is, it is easy to react to the information that I received because, after I leave the person who is telling me the information, it starts replaying itself over and over again in my mind posing question and coming up with answers, as well as justifying my assumption about the Third party which put me in a “catch 22” (In between a rock and a hard place) per say. If I inquire to the Third party about the information that I received, that would be self-interest based and creating friction/conflict. On the other hand using it as leverage against the third party is also self-interest based spiteful and creates friction/conflict as well as saying that I believe the information to be true. My initial reaction was anger, then, I realized that this is not a solution. How do I find a solution for something that has already happened? This is where trust comes in. I have accepted and allowed myself to define trust in separation of and as me, as; putting my trust in others thinking that they will not betray me. Within that what I have also realized is, by placing my trust in others I am saying that it’s ok to betray me, because how can I trust others if I don’t trust myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with anger when I received information about a Third party pertaining to me and how the Third party is.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that anger is not a solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to replay the information over and over again in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my mind pose questions and come up with answers as well as justifying my assumptions about the Third party and believing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume that the information I received about the Third party is true.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/perceive/believe that I am being put in a “catch 22”. (In between a rock and a hard place) per say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to inquire to the Third party about the information I received out of self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hold on to the information I received to be used as leverage against the Third party.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define trust in separation of and as me, as; putting my trust in others thinking that they will not betray me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that in defining trust separate from me, as; putting my trust in others thinking that they will not betray me, I am saying that it’s ok to betray me.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself reacting with anger when receiving information, I stop and breathe. I realize that reacting with anger is not a solution.

I commit myself to no longer accept and allow myself to react with anger when receiving information, but instead know that it is only information feeding my mind consciousness system in order for me to remain enslaved to the patterns that I have created so that I won’t realize who I really am.

I commit myself to no longer allow my mind come up with questions and answers justifying my assumptions about the Third party, but instead breathe through the information as I am receiving it so that it doesn’t get stuck in my mind.

I commit myself to no longer place myself in the position of thinking/perceiving/believing that I am being put in a “catch 22” (In between a rock and a hard place) per say, but instead understand that I am believing the information to be true because it suits my self-interest which makes me react energetically feeding my mind consciousness system in order for me to remain enslaved.

I commit myself to no longer believe in information that I receive to be true.

I commit myself to stopping my mind from wanting to inquire about and hold on to the information that I received to be used as leverage against the Third party, out of self-interest and spite.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself defining trust in separation of and as me, as; putting my trust in others thinking that they will not betray me, I stop and breathe. I realize that by defining trust separate from me, as; putting my trust in other thinking that they will not betray me, I am saying that it’s ok to betray me.

I commit myself to changing my definition of trust to that which is best for all life.

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