Day 5: Justification

Day 5: Justification

I am one who would always justify everything I did. I used justification to make me “feel better for doing it. I would sometimes put the blame on others by saying things like, “If they wouldn’t have done this, then I wouldn’t have done that. Another justification that I give myself is, “I needed it”. For instance, when I used to do drugs, thinking that I needed it to be happy/ feel good/ have energy and to stay focus, that justification was never justified, because it was only momentary. I was just deceiving myself into thinking I needed to justify things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always justify everything I did and use justification to make me feel better for doing it..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/perceive/believe that if I justify doing things, I will feel better for doing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use blaming other as justification for me doing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I need to use drugs to be happy/feel good/have energy and stay focus as justification for doing it.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that justification is not a substitute for the consequences that I have brought upon myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into thinking that I need to justify things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my self-interest to control me into doing things I believed I needed to justify.

When and as I see myself justifying things, I stop and breathe. I realize that having a justification is not a substitute for the consequences I have brought upon myself and will have to walk through, and I should have taken a self-honest assessment before I let my self-interest control me into doing things I believed I needed to justify.

I commit myself to no longer accept and allow my self-interest to control me into doing things that will bring consequence upon myself, but instead be self-honest with myself before putting myself into a situation that I think that I will need to justify.

I commit myself to no longer accept and allow myself to think that justification is a substitute for the consequences that I have brought upon myself, but instead check myself before I do things that I use justification.

I commit myself to through writing, self-forgiveness with self-corrective application assist and support myself to see how it is that I have created myself as patterns and recreating myself as life and standing for what is best for all life.

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